at last its done...

today,i am the moderator...

no, i WAS the moderator...

how did i do...?

i cant really say very well, but still my full democratic policy is implemented.

"say what you want, when you want"

i have nothing against backtracking on dicussed topics.
of course, it'll be better complete than lacking.

it'll also give all the members a chance to speak out or "contribute" whatever information they were able to gather.

they say, i was good today... well, not to be cynical, but i dont really think so...

again silence had been a good part of me...

and even as i tend to summarize "FEW" concepts... that seems to be all that i can contribute...

i wanted to skip sleep last night... but it seems i was unable to...

i always am unable to...

oh well...


but at least its done...

epidemiology left for the day...

then sleep....

Seemingly lost...

i come today with a new look
tried to hide in the nook

yet some still notice
im silent just like always

something's amiss today
something's bugging, i dont say

my mind is in whirls
not because of a girl

something far greater
something far deeper...

time will tell
if it'll all be well

keep an open mind
i'll try,
but i just cant find...

MY ANTICIPATED FINAL MODERATION...

just as the title implies...

tomorrow... my final moderator task for the year.

yes, that's the supposed "leader" in the tutorial discussions...

it will be in renal module case 2...

before i get my turn again, there will 9 others that will become moderators...
with but only 2 short modules remaining (endocrine 2 & 1/2 weeks -according to Dr. Magat and repoductive) i dont think we'll be having 9 cases!! even when minor cases are placed...

(in a 3 week module like renal 3 major cases only, meaning 3 moderators per module...)


and so... we can safely conclude...

for these remaining few months of the school year...
for these days left...
tomorrow will be my last moderating days..

well relatively last... (if i really dont continue with this study in medicine...)

(just to add... my last case... TOXIC!!... but physiology had always been something i would like read... compared to Anatomy or Histology that is... )

After the dreaded long weeks...

1st Degree Burns...

ok. so GIT module is over...

i know... the question of all.. how was it??

well...

i got the lowest practical exam grade ever of my entire (so far...) med student career...

8.5 pts. away from the passing...

i failed in the first long exam...

7 pts. away from the passing...

i failed in the second long exam...

6 pts. away from the passing...

(see i trend?!?)

damnit!! i too am assuming i didnt pass my tutorial quizes and correlate quizes (if i did, bordeline maybe...)


so... what next?? i dont want of course to take a DA... neither a red 5.0... but i cant help it...

i think it is time now to fulfill my part of the trade...

(before i went to med school, i made a promise i will try my best... but when i fail but once... i'm quittin...)

why? im not a quitter. first year is the fundamentals, if you cant get the fundamentals then what more in the higher years?!?


2nd Degree Burns...

just this monday was the epidemiology exam... the 2nd time...

i will not say i came prepared but at least i know more than my 1st exam..

result?? i really seem to suck in all these... it seems those related to mathematics without the advent use of memory is my skill... yes... and it seems worthless even here...

again... another failure...

im good at that it seems...


3rd degree burns...

just great...

im the moderator for case 2 of renal...

have i prepared?? hmm... let's see...

it's a continuation of the 1st case.
i wasnt able to study well for the 1st case.

now im not in the mood of reading after "discovering" my GIT module performance...
i just want to play and play and play and play... to try but forget my so called...

"pathethicsm"


tormented soul...


i just found out how difficult it is to do "layouting" for the school paper...
especially since i have never EVER done that in my life...

i am opting to skip writing articles if i have to do alot of this...

but i want to at least be able to share few articles i had in mind at least before i leave...

hopefully, it'll be a "leveled" article... the last thing i want is people spitting at my work...




stagnant pain...

in the end...
i come to realize... i am not so different to others.. yet... knowing "my potentials"... i may be better.. but knowing better "my limitations"... i can just but wonder... how long will i last?? how long till i realize??

*sigh*

i had my haircut...

1st of the last 2 before we end our first year in med...

i will miss my long hair...






MU Philippines STATS:
level 131 Fairy Elf Bhar Server (hoping to get more BLESS jewels...)
level 50 Dark Wizard Wigle Server (hoping to find a faster way to level up...)

Again, The Repeat...

yes, redunduncy?

yes, indeed. a new year should be a new for a change?

not really for me... still the same old habits.

today was the first tutorials for the new year.

and as usual, i was the silent tall guy...

yes, because i slept the entire night... i even left the computer turned on... yes... with one CD-Rom tray out... amazing..

and i thought a wink of about 2 to 3 hours would settle it.

i was wrong.

morals of the lessons since last year: DO NOT STAY UP LATE A DAY BEFORE THE ACTUAL TUTORIAL DISCUSSION!!!

but it seemed i always try to prove that wrong... but sadly i fail every single damn time.

just great...

tomorrow's the last day of the first week of the new year of the 2nd week of the GIT module..

got my Respi Module grade too... fair... as usual..

anyway, life goes on. more days to go... about 3~4 months. depends on how you count it.

It's finally back...

yes, the long due studies...

it's finally back. the laboratory works, the lectures, and of course the oh so popular tutorials...

it makes me miss the vacation already. but as they say, everything comes to an end. and so with this in mind, i stick back to my old habits, my old principles, and methods... hopefully this year around i would somehow do much "better".
in a sense of not really topping the exams but rather a better performance. that is hopefully.

also, with the few people i am glad to see everyday in school... it makes me also wonder, is it worth the stay? or would it be expendible in the future... *sigh* in time i will finally conclude..

good luck to me for this year.
i just hope i really survive this first year...


happy new year to us all!!

hope you enjoyed your vacations, like i did... although it was cut short...

oh well... it finally over...

so it comes to a halt.

everything comes to an end.

and so is this 2 week vacation.

back to sleepless nights, back to thick books, photocopied papers, lecture recordings, cramming, and the old white elegant uniform... not to mention, wild classmates...

so it's sunday. when i close my eyes tonight... it'll be the last few hours i can relax...

but the sad thing is... i wasnt able to READ or STUDY anything for that matter!!

it seemed i exploited this vacation too much...

yes, i grew back lots of zits on my face...
because i done sleep much... i stay up the entire early morning... yes past 12am to play MU...

well, now it seems to take its toll...
on the good side... at least i was able to release tension...

tension from studies and toxicity...

level 116 Fairy Elf in Bhar... not bad actually for the 2 week break... hehehe....


anyway, few hours to go and well, i have to get back to reality... a reality of trying to live a dream... a dream that still is a hope to be a reality....

hehehe... (Love that last statement...)