After a while...

well, it's been a while since my last post...

for those past days... experience could be but summarized in 1 word...HELL!!!!

anyway, i'm currently in new depths...
swimming further, trying to leave behind yet hoping to still remember in the future that past...

now im but troubled,
how is it that everyone seems so happy?
full of glee?!!what did i miss??

this past few days a lot of people are so much... different...
something like i lost track of something... what the hell is it?!?

damn...